If you don’t recognize me, you’re new.
If you DO recognize me, you’re probably thinking: “Oh man! THAT guy again....”
I realized by the time I left this place that I was the disruptive force that no one liked....
Back then, I was an active nationalist and I read news from nationalistic news sites which pissed me of since the news were often negative.
I then came here, reading news and threads and because I was still angry I got triggered much easier than I should have been....I realized this also when I left.
I had to stop reading those news sites cause I couldn’t go around being angry all the time....
I’m much more harmonic today. I learned to avoid trolls and disruptive people and instead focus on positive things in life.
I apologized to Angelspit like 4 years ago and planned to do it here as well but it took some years to do.
I did it now because I was trying to find a way to run Heroes II on my iPad and Celestial Heavens came up in the results so it reminded me of what I should have done years ago....
I’m not into gaming as much as I were. I focus on training now. CrossFit for the win!
I saw some old timers are still here. Pitsu and Pol (who took the reigns).
You were always calm and reasonable Pitsu. Main thing I remember about you
Panda Tar, saw you too. Bet you always wondered why I was so angry so often.
So yeah, sorry for all the anger I brought here. Didn’t see it myself....
....It’s scary how I never saw how much of an unpleasant guy I was back then....
Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
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Re: Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
Funny how ten years and a few beers can change a man (or a lady)
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Re: Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
Hi, I think that's kinda the point. News are negative to piss you.
Anyway I'm glad that you find yourself a better balance in your life. Congrats!
Do you feel now fully harmonized? What about your love to H3, playing HotA, campaings. etc.. ?
Anyway I'm glad that you find yourself a better balance in your life. Congrats!
Do you feel now fully harmonized? What about your love to H3, playing HotA, campaings. etc.. ?
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Re: Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
Oh man!
Brave to bring this message. And great that you managed to turn your energy around.
I do remember your strong opinions and sometimes hard words. For what it's worth, I thought it brought some liveliness to the forum so was never much disturbed
Brave to bring this message. And great that you managed to turn your energy around.
I do remember your strong opinions and sometimes hard words. For what it's worth, I thought it brought some liveliness to the forum so was never much disturbed
Are you suggesting coconuts migrate?
Re: Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
I might have appeared here a bit late, but it's never too late! hohohoho
I am bipolar, and going along psychotherapy, which made wonders for me. So, I can relate to moments, a lot of them actually, when I was really unpleasant, mostly in real life to people I care and love the most. And all of that was clueless, knowing but not knowing, you know? I am generally a calm person, pretty much patient and usually mediator of conflicting situations. It's sort of instinct. Overall, I consider myself a likeable person, make friend rather easily and I am very loyal. So, the problem in bipolarity in a calm person is that it draws too many negative things and we try to contain it, but it comes a moment that we set it loose in a wave of ... dunno how to put it in words, but a wave of foul thoughts. Although I am under therapy, I am far from cured. So I must be always on the watch for these dark thoughts. Brooding and speculation is always orbiting, which is kinda annoying. And you're right! News these days are too much focused on agenda, too many people trying to impress upon last words in a post, a pithy remark of some ilk. And a lot of hatred and easy-to-reach public trying to make the world even to everyone, whilst segregating it even more. It's messy.
Oh, not actually saying that you were bipolar or anything! Just saying that the feeling of being sometimes unpleasant with people in the past and now being able to see it, I understand that. And it's very good for both sides when we get to tell people that, and learn how to forgive ourselves, which is the most difficult thing to do. But you can do it.
Yeah, fitness for life! Although I am not a CrossFit enthusiast, I always see as a good thing when people see in it a path to get themselves into motion, literally.Campaigner wrote: I’m not into gaming as much as I were. I focus on training now. CrossFit for the win!
As Wimfrits put it, sometimes people felt it might be even necessary. It would take some from their comfort zones, prompt some thinking, take some action, even if they felt a bit harsh. Of course, if you identified that as a bad thing back then, you must rejoice now that you have overcome most of it, and people also get over with a lot of their personal affairs also. However, it is really nice that you care.I saw some old timers are still here. Pitsu and Pol (who took the reigns).
You were always calm and reasonable Pitsu. Main thing I remember about you
Panda Tar, saw you too. Bet you always wondered why I was so angry so often.
I am bipolar, and going along psychotherapy, which made wonders for me. So, I can relate to moments, a lot of them actually, when I was really unpleasant, mostly in real life to people I care and love the most. And all of that was clueless, knowing but not knowing, you know? I am generally a calm person, pretty much patient and usually mediator of conflicting situations. It's sort of instinct. Overall, I consider myself a likeable person, make friend rather easily and I am very loyal. So, the problem in bipolarity in a calm person is that it draws too many negative things and we try to contain it, but it comes a moment that we set it loose in a wave of ... dunno how to put it in words, but a wave of foul thoughts. Although I am under therapy, I am far from cured. So I must be always on the watch for these dark thoughts. Brooding and speculation is always orbiting, which is kinda annoying. And you're right! News these days are too much focused on agenda, too many people trying to impress upon last words in a post, a pithy remark of some ilk. And a lot of hatred and easy-to-reach public trying to make the world even to everyone, whilst segregating it even more. It's messy.
Oh, not actually saying that you were bipolar or anything! Just saying that the feeling of being sometimes unpleasant with people in the past and now being able to see it, I understand that. And it's very good for both sides when we get to tell people that, and learn how to forgive ourselves, which is the most difficult thing to do. But you can do it.
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Re: Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
We forgive you.
Re: Sorry for being a dick a long time ago
No, we are thinking "Yay, another one who made my life more fun years ago!". (I know the OP is also over a year old, but since the boards are so flooded with new posts nowadays, it somehow eluded me back then).Campaigner wrote: If you don’t recognize me, you’re new.
If you DO recognize me, you’re probably thinking: “Oh man! THAT guy again....”
Good wishes to all lurkers and ghosts from the past!
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